Happy Valentines Day!
For many this would be a day of commercialization of Love, greedy candy and greeting card companies. Personally this holiday has special meaning to me as I remember even as a child, mom would often get my sister and I cards, candy, chocolate and represent her love to us, but she did that everyday towards my sister and I. This tradition lasted well into our adulthood and even when we had our daughter, her granddaughter, she would spoil her with the same cards, candy, gifts and make her feel so special. I continued this tradition in the best way I can, but honestly it has gotten expensive over the years, and during the beginning of my daughter’s life especially as a toddler she grew accustomed to gifts, cards and even going out to eat. This expected today, but she is now twelve years old.
I have also shown my wife the specialness of the day, by getting her cards, flowers, gifts at times to represent my love. I guess I am sucker for this holiday and one of the people making it commercial year after year and I have been okay with that, because it gives me a way to present my love to my family.
This year is different though as the finances are not in the best shape, I am struggling with my mental health and trying to find the beauty in love. I love my wife and daughter of course, but I look at this day to reflect on love for myself, but sadly I don’t. I have stopped respecting myself, feeling any sense of worth.
Although I have had many years of celebrating Valentines day with my wife and daughter. I do also reflect on the days when I was single, looking and searching for love. I remember one time in my life in college when I was so desperate for love on valentines day, I remember I would often search online and finding a date for valentines day and said I would need to take her to the Yard House in Long Beach, coming to find that it was an expensive restaurant beyond my budget at the time, telling her that I was not to meet her after all. These were just one of those moments of disappointment I remember and also remembering a time years ago I took my wife and daughter to Chili’s on Valentines day and frustratingly waiting for almost an hour, leaving because it was taking so long disappointed that I was unable to meet the day for my wife and daughter and although I was no big deal, I was truly angered that I couldn’t even treat my family.
Today, let remember I can be a day just to be kind, not necessarily to tell someone you love them, but that is nice and all.
Have an incredible lovely day!
Joe Meyers Adventures 