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Glorification of Violence in Media Only Gets Worse, especially by those considered Mentally ill.
I often think about the amount of violence that plagues our society in television, film, music, and media and how desensitized we are. Often when I watch television with ads, there are collages of shows and films that highlight a certain genre like horror. Watching one the other day there was one on Peacock that […]
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Holy Week is Here-Christ Has Risen!
Easter is a special time for me and my family, but sadly we often get busy with life, realizing that the most impactful and historical event as a Christian happened, Christ was crucified and rose again, taking up our sins for mankind. Easter although is Americanized to reflect spring, bunnies, chocolate, egg hunts is anything but […]
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Palm Sunday, The Kings Arrivial That Changed The World
As a Christian, easter is so incredibly special in a believer’s life and although we are not to easter just yet, Palm Sunday as Jesus Christ enters Jerusalem. The name Palm originates as branches waved by the crowd to greet and honor Jesus as he entered the city. This marks the holy week, which is […]
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Constant Reflections on Life
I often reflect on the state of my mind as at times I feel like I am going into madness, unpredictability and on edge, which I feel most of the time. I feel defensive now this point in my life, like when is something going to be taken from me, like money, my job, my […]
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The Circus Has Arrived! : New Book: The Menagerie Locket Now Available.
The circus has just arrived and awaits your purchase of the Greatest Show on Earth West of The Mississippi at Fucini’s Family Circus. The only circus where you’ll be enthralled with fun, games and the possibility of never leaving. Join the true stars of the show the Freaks. Purchase through all major retailer like Amazon, […]
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Happy St. Paddy’s Day!
For those who celebrate St. Paddy’s day, I can only think of the little green men who represent today, but I know there is so much more to this day, as my Wife Delia is born on this day!
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Happy Birthday, Love
Happy Birthday to my love, my wife , my partner, my Best Friend Delia who I am eternally grateful for your love and sacrifice each day taking care of me and our daughter. I know it cant be easy with me at times, with all my moods, my happy state, my depressive state, but I […]
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The Circus is in Town March 17th: New Book, The Menagerie Locket
Do you love the circus, even the ones that are filled intrigue, mystery and maybe a little tragedy or a lot , Then Fucini’s Family Circus may be just your ticket to the greatest show on earth west of the Mississippi. Come see lions, tigers, clowns and the stars the Freak! Stay after the show […]
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The Spiraling of My Mind, asking it to Stop
I often feel inundated with information overload, doom strolling as my mind attempts to process the news of the day, the celebrities, the photos, the stories, and periodicals I come across every day. Media only makes it worse I should just turn it off, ignore the noise posted online, but my brain, my interest is […]
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Gangs, Drugs and Migrants : Why the Medias Protrayal of Migrants is Way Off and People Belive It
The Hate for the Migrant The hate for the migrant is real and only getting worse in the U.S. and around the world as people look to greener pastures to survive, have a better quality of life and support themselves and their families. I get that in today’s media, they are painted as criminals, law […]
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Amerika, We Are In For an Awakening, Wake up before it’s Too Late!
Not to be an alarmist but America is under a great threat to our democracy. I am unsure how much the average person things of democracy, our country, the rule of law and the potential for America to be under a dictatorship or have an American Hitler. I hate the world of politics, its divisive, […]
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One year Ago Today Dread Came Knocking: Job loss, Despair and Regret.
February 28th, 2023, will be an unforgettable day, as I woke up early Tuesday morning for a client meeting, checking my phone first thing at 6:30 A.M only to see my teams apps was not working, which I found to be strange, attempting to login in again, unable to. Life Changing Email Feeling the need […]
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The Decimation of Society and Only Getting Worse
Let them eat cake, if often repeated as said by Marie Antoninette, but actually history shows it was most likely said by Jean-Jacques Rousseau’s confessions in 1765. Who knows who really said, but its often a display that the cares of peasants are not important. Who are the peasants you ask, well WE of course. […]
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Is Christian Nationalism The Ruin of Christianity? How Politics Has Degraded What Jesus Meant.
With a New future President or potential Dictatorship coming to America this November. Christian Nationalism has been in the news lately as future presidential candidates pine for the Christian right. As a Christian I find it disgusting that the name of Jesus is used as a prop to get ones agenda passed. Using ones love […]
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More To Come, My Writing Journey
I’m proud that I get to publish my work independently although I would love to be considered by the book world as a known author like Stephen King whose books reach millions and instantly turned into films and television. As an independent author I love that I can get my work, my passion to the […]
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Epic Failures of Life
Getting older is no fun, although many would say that’s life and that is so true as we have no control over age, getting older, only what we do with our time here on earth. In my older age I have become increasingly observant of myself, the new generations of today and although I am […]
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Rest in Christ Pastor Jeff Johnson, 1948-2024
I find myself sorrowful today finding out that the pastor who brought me to the Lord had passed, which obliviously new what happen one day, he was 76 years old. Going home on Feburary 13th, 2024. Although I did not know this man person, attending Calvary Chapel was my home church for many years but […]
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The Circus is Coming To Town in My Book
The circus is coming to town March 17th, 2024 with my newest novel The Menagerie Locket. A book takes place in a circus, but a circus with secrets that will soon be discovered. This book takes you into one of my favorite themes, subjects with characters I hope leap off the page. This book infuse […]
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American Democracy is Ripe for Destruction As Society is so focused on Taylor Swift.
We are ripe for a takeover in the good old U.S. as the future president will be decided this year. Which is normal for our country, but not so much as we start to see the tides are shifting to installing potentially a true populist authoritarian into our country for the first time. We here […]
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In Honor of Apollo Creed – RIP
Where would Rocky Balboa be with out Apollo Creed. The actor who played Apollo Carl Weathers passed peacefully on February 1st, 2024. A accomplished actor, athlete and director. As a Rocky loved , I can not imagine Rocky without Carl Weathers playing Apollo as he was meant for that role. In actuality when Sly Stallone made […]
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The Weight of My Life’s Choices
I often reflect on my life, my choices, and where I am today in my life. I’ll admit that career-wise I thought I would be much further into this life today. Although I am not complaining about my current state and the company I work for, I thank GOD. God has position me in a […]
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Societal Collapse Continues Each Day, Be Ready!
We live in world that constantly tells us how much of nothings we are. Living in the U.S. I am confronted with this each day. As I live in a country of extreme wealth, millionaires and billionaires who use media to make it known to the world how little we are to this country and […]
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Unhinged Again…But I Will Be Ok
This week I was having a real moment for some reason as my mind was filled with turmoil , thoughts of un-satisfaction. Thoughts of feeling as my life has no meaning as I self-reflected on my life which I do a lot as my heart struggles. I look at the mistakes of my life, the […]
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Would You Die Voluntarily?
People often say I would die for you, whether it’s their child, spouse , loved ones but how true is that. If you were the main provider for your family and were about to be homeless and had to die to save them that hardship, would you. Many would say NO , if we are […]
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Why Do We Try So Hard to Prevent Suicide
Hear me out because often especially in the U.S. we make great efforts to prevent suicide. The know the answer may be oblivious such as “Well because their life matters” or “they need to live” . But why do they need to live, who are they living for , for family and friends who will […]
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The Circus is Coming to Bookshelves!
The circus is coming to town March 17th. But this circus is no ordinary circus not filled with joy, no filled with happy moments of clowns, aeriest, but with freaks, supernatural events and mystery. My newest book will be arriving soon. This book combines my love of the circus, freaks and the paranormal all in […]
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Happy New Year to 2024, Good Riddance to 23′
Goodbye 2023 and good riddance! But not completely as I wrap up this year filled with hardship and successes but more hardships than I have needed and even now recovering for this year and wont be made whole again until a year from on and I am talking emotionally and financially. Just like 1 year […]
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Remember The Reason For the Season!
What is truly important in this time of year, the season of giving, a season of joy and for myself, the reason for the season JESUS! All of look at this time of year differently, some absolutely hate this time of year over the sear reason that it’s a time of being forced to give […]
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Give Someone The Pox as The Perfect Gift!
Doesn’t that sound nice , giving some a Pox for the holidays, its the gift that keeps on giving. But this Pox you can sit comfortably in your home without any harm whatsoever. The POX is my debut novel that came out in June, which for would make a great gift for the book lover […]
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44 Years of Life Happened Today! Happy Birthday to ME.
Today is my 44th birthday! Please hold the congratulations, well wishes as I reflect on this day to think about these 44 years of life. More than half of my life has been filled with turmoil, hardships, living in regret and sadly waiting for each day to be my last day on earth. Yet I […]
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Being Thankful Period.
Being thankful can be difficult at times as we look at our own lives, often comparing what we do not have, whether it’s a job, Money, a house, nice cars and I Know these are materialistic things and one can easy say well those things DON’T matter. Of course, a matter, because we live in […]
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I will never be valuable…
I will never be valuable in this world as I look around I often see whose who society has said are the most important and valuable like business gurus like Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos and others. In addition we are constantly be told by society that those in entertainment like Taylor Swift, the Kardashians, musicians, […]
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The Internal War I Fight Each Day!
Did you know September is Suicide Prevention Month? I find this to be important to many out there who are struggling like myself. I often think of suicide and in all honestly, I think of how I will plan my exit in this world. Even when things appear to be ok or well, I think […]
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Should We Feel Bad For The Candy Man
As we get into September, let the horror fests begin as films start creeping into each of the streaming services, most of my favorites from Nightmare on Elm Street, Halloween’s (Except the Rob Zombie) versions, Exorcist and Exorcist III and many others. One that I found great interest in as far the story is Candy […]
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Volume II : Series Feature #4 Life in the Circus from Yesterday to Today! – Circus Tragedies (1918 Circus Train Wreck)
Step right up, Step right up! The show is about to begin as we explore the world of the circus and those who made and make a magical place to visit. The tradition of the circus has a long incredible history as we learned from last week, but that history lesson is not over today […]
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Lessons Learned in This Time of Joblessness , Job Searching, Failures and Successes
job searching is difficult, painful, frustrating, demoralizing, but there are lessons we can learn in these moments. For many I sympathize with reading the struggles many face each day such as Homelessness, depression, anxiety and even suicide. Here are lessons I learned during this trial in my life in hopes they help others. Lessons Learned: […]
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When Self Sacrifice May be a Good Thing
DISCLAIMER : This post is sensitive in nature that discusses self harm and Suicide. If you are feeling suicidal , feelings of self harm and in the U.S. dial 9-8-8 to speak with someone or 9-1-1. These thoughts are my opinions. I often think about death, a lot. I think about what my last days […]
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What Happened to This Boy?
I often go back and look at old pictures of myself and think of myself in the sense of what happened to this little boy. The picture you see here was obviously when I was a young boy, I think I was rather cute. This boy was innocent, a clean mind and heart never wanting […]
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Volume II : Series Feature #3 Life in the Circus from Yesterday to Today! – Circus Tragedies (Dessi Espana)
Step right up, Step right up! The show is about to begin as we explore the world of the circus and those who made and make a magical place to visit. The tradition of the circus has a long incredible history as we learned from last week, but that history lesson is not over today […]
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EP. 81 He Has Risen and Save You- Resurrection Message
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-ney7e-15c978b Jesus has Risen, Thank God as I give a short talk on what Jesus had done for us when dying on the cross for you and I.
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EP 80. Getting Started in a Broken World With Dark Thoughts
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-2aky5-159c58b Today we talk about the state of the country, the similarities to Orwell’s 1984 and the future. We talk books, my new Book and future works and much much more.
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EP. 79 Yo Apollo – Getting Strong Now
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-pemxa-156e0f4 On todays Just Talk we Honor Carl Weather AKA Apollo Creed, Rest in Peace. We talk politics, the state of our country and the future. We talk about struggle and life in the new position.
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EP. 78 Its A Wonderful Life – Merry Christmas!
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-czfkz-1532d10 Merry Christmas and it’s beginning to look like Christmas bringing you joy and peace from Joe Meyer.
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EP. 77 Being Thankful Even in Thankless Times
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-s94eq-1502666 Being thankful even when it’s hard in this thanksgiving message and what I’m thankful for. Have a joyous thanksgiving.
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EP. 76 Can I Get an Amen For November
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-n6992-14eeb34 On todays just talk giving you an update on job, life , family. As we approach the holidays giving thanks, being grateful despite adversity.
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EP. 75 Breathe with Me
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-5s965-14cfa78 Today we discuss current personal , political events shaping our world. This is a catch up to what’s been going on in my life, my physical and mental health.
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EP. 74 This Is Me and I Don’t Care Anymore
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-rgqm5-149fe1d Today we discuss recent career events, the struggles of joblessness and getting back on track.
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POX Paperback Unveiling
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My Debut Novel available in e-book with major retailers and paperback available August 30th, Presale August 21st.
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Volume II : Series Feature #2 Life in the Circus from Yesterday to Today! – Circus Tragedies (Flying Wallendas)
Step right up, Step right up! The show is about to begin as we explore the world of the circus and those who made and make a magical place to visit. The tradition of the circus has a long incredible history as we learned from last week, but that history lesson is not over today […]
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The POX is Coming!
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The Pox is Coming to Paper Back August 30th, available now in major retailers like Amazon and Barnes and Noble with pre-sale starting August 21st.
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EP. 73 Turtle Power in Times of Hardships
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-27csi-147bc99 On this episode I discuss recent events for my job search successes and failures relying on GOD and trying not to let the voices in my head tear me down.
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Preparing my Heart to say Goodbye.
As of late, I am under great distress over searching for a new job after my last role did not work out. My mind is living in regret, as I replay my career and personal failures over and over again never resting. For many losing a job is traumatic enough because of the stress of […]
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1st Draft Complete of 2nd book – The Menagerie
The completion of my 2nd book 1st draft is complete, currently named the Menagerie. This book I started July 2022. What led to this book being written first and foremost is my love for the circus, add to that mystery and throw in the paranormal. I don’t believe I have come across or read a […]
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The Voices In My Head Won’t Stop
My dark thoughts continue as I am falling into worry and hopelessness. For many and, I have only not been working for two weeks, but prior to that not working from March to May, which is not a relatively long time. As of late I have been waking up at 3:56 AM and yes, I […]
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My New Paranormal WIP
For years I devoted my time and energy to the POX, my first novel which I began to write in June 2019 and finally publishing June 2023, Father’s Day to be exact. My next book is well under way as I am already at 70k words and I anticipate this book will be a lot […]
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My Time of Trials, Brokenness in My Search for Employment
I am broken once again as the devastation of another job loss is such a short period of time. It just happened on recently but deep down I can say I felt that this job would lead to this for some reason. My dream became a Nightmare This job was especially personal to me because […]
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EP. 72 God Only Knows About My Brokenness
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-zdcyv-14581d3 Today we just the recent trials I’ve been experiencing, job gains and losses, depression and anxieties and my struggles to depend on GOD as I wait on him for new doors. This a message of hope for those who struggle.
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New Job, New Stress and Trying Not to Lose It!
This week was one of those weeks where I was about to say F*ck it I am quitting this job. As many of you know I have been in a new role since May. A role that I is completely new and NO remanence of my last role. I now work in Project management as […]
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The Pox is Here!
The pox has arrived my first book. This piece of literature originally started in June 2019 prior to the pandemic. The two main characters, Doctor Jack Spellman and Penny King connected in more ways than one as they search for truth, one the run for their lives as physical manifestations take over each of them, […]
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My Metamorphosis In New Job and My Change.
May 16th having starting a new role after a couple of forced months of involuntary unemployment. A role unlike I have ever been in but with some familiarity in my field of project management. It was been stressful, uncomfortable causing me to think of my past choices, especially the position I turned down which was […]
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Happy Fathers Day! 2023
Father’s Day originated and was celebrated first on June 19, 1910, in the state of Washington. However it was not until 1972 – 58 years after President Woodrow Wilson made Mother’s Day official. Fathers day was not always met with the same enthusiasm as Mother’s Day, simply because Fathers do not have the same […]
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The POX is Coming Father’s Day! Pre-Order Today!
My Debut Novel available on Amazon, Barnes and Noble and other retailers. A labor of love that I started in June 2019, after years of editing finally bringing my first book into reality.
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Volume II : Series Feature #1 Life in the Circus from Yesterday to Today! – Circus Tragedies (Providence Hair-Hangers)
Step right up, Step right up! The show is about to begin as we explore the world of the circus and those who made and make a magical place to visit. The tradition of the circus has a long incredible history as we learned from last week, but that history lesson is not over today […]
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Life in The Circus From Yesterday to Today- Welcome to the Freak Show!
This is a combination of all of the performers I have profiled and written about over the years, but this post specifically is just the so called freaks, which many have found interesting and I continue to add new freaks as I come across them. 1. Thomas Wedders (World’s Largest Nose) 2. Charlotte Vogel (Susi […]
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A Milestone for Daughter Mikaylah-Growing up.
My daughter Mikaylah in a way has passed a great milestone in my eyes but for many its not really a milestone as she completed 4th grade and going on to 5th grade. I have seen our daughter grow up so much in these last years, in a way it’s frightening because of how fast […]
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The POX is Coming – Debut Novel
It gives me incredible joy to announce that my debut novel is coming out June 18th, yes Fathers day. A Novel that I have been working on since 2019 and although it did not take me four years to write it, Over years I have edited and edited and edited. I do not wish to […]
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Happy Mother’s Day 2023
Happy Mother’s Day! This day holds a special place in my heart even though my own mother passed away in December 2015. But her impact left me forever changed. I do of course wish she was here today, but deep down I know she Is in a better place, HEAVEN. My mother named Linda born […]
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Fighting with Myself Over New Opportunities (New Job)
Over the course of these two months, I have been under a constant state of turmoil due to losing my job due to a tech layoff. This was certainly a company I had wanted to work for for years. Overall, I had a good experience, learned a lot and met fantastic people but in the […]
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EP. 71 Fighting with Myself while I Hang Tough
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-swjbn-13f6c90 Today we discuss recent events in my job search, the struggles of fighting myself over decision making , making the right choices for the future.
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My Job Loss, My Job Gain and How I managed
Losing one’s job is painful, it can be one of the most destructive events happening in ones life. I should know I have been through a few of them. Most recently I was laid off March 2nd, 2023. An unexpected shock as the organization I worked for gave no indication there would be any form […]
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Happy Resurrection Day 2023 – He is Risen!
Happy Resurrection Day or Happy Easter for those who do not celebrate that Christ has risen. This day is incredibly special to me and should be to many of us, but I understand that many do not believe and can not believe that a man can rise from the dead and save us from our […]
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EP. 70 Scared and Resurrected- Easter Message
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-9vc5m-13dab13 On this special occasion of Easter , we talk about the importance of Christs resurrection and death . We also discuss my recent surgery , joblessness and mindset in these troubling times.
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Series Feature #23 Life in the Circus from Yesterday to Today! – Josephine Joseph (Half Man/ Half Women)
Step right up, Step right up! The show is about to begin as we explore the world of the circus and those who made and make a magical place to visit. The tradition of the circus has a long incredible history as we learned from last week, but that history lesson is not over today […]
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My Dark Thoughts In My Time of Joblessness
My dark thoughts have already been in overload since losing my primary job March 2nd. I am working to be positive but its not easy for someone who has the tendency to think of the worst case scenario. I tend to dream about an escape out of this situation as this type of situation brings […]
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EP. 69 Only God Knows When I need a Favor
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-jvpv9-13a9c8b Today we discuss my challenge of my Job loss , keeping up with my mental health, physical health and dealing with difficult times.
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Unfocused and Becoming Unhinged slowly
It was October 13th, 2019 when I was last unemployed , similar to this time around, but looking back my feelings at the time have not all the changed that much, but back in 2019 was in a much different place mentally and physically. For those going through it due to being laid off or […]
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Surviving Being Laid Off in 2023 From being Newly Laid off, my perspective
Lay offs continue to happen in 2023 as companies continue to cut their workforces, often blaming over hiring in the pandemic, neglecting to realize the negative impact they have on families and our lives. But is being laid off as bad as it sounds, it can be but there are ways to combat these difficult transitions and keep a healthy mind.
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EP. 68 The Afterlife Hurts Like Hell
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-pncic-1397890 Today on just talk we discuss ordinary life, really a boring conversation lol but join me as we discuss music, obesity and mental health along with much more.
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EP. 67 Welcome To The Circus of 2023
https://www.podbean.com/media/share/pb-i73k9-1377f92 Today we discuss the start of the new year sans politics. Focused on what’s important in the new year. Make 2023 a great one!
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