Happy Thanksgiving 2019, a both wonderful year in the beginning but a horrible finish of the year. Yeah I know there are people out there in the world who have nothing no family, no home, no food, nothing.
I am of course thankful I have a roof over my head, food on my table, some money but no job due to recent events that I am still yet to get over. A job for many is an important part of a person’s identity and security, the security to know you have the means to eat, live in an apartment and take care of your family.
I know many have said but its a Job, you’ll get another one, there are plenty of jobs out there and you will be fine. I have heard this is just a phase, in time you will forget all about this time. Not so simple as days turn in to weeks and weeks hopefully don’t turn into months.
I am no fool, I tried to play my cards right until now, got an education, choose fields that are almost recession proof and descent income and security, but nothing is secure in today’s world.
I honestly have not been jobless very often in my adult career, I have always been a good soldier and stayed with a company through thick and thin, but this last company I feel was different. Things happen I know and it happens to everyone.
I am thankful for my wife and daughter, my father ,sister and brother in law my only real family who gives a damn about me, but during these times my depression, anxiety kicks in, my mind starts running and suddenly I can’t sleep, thinking about the worst case scenarios even death.
The other part of myself is I am a follower of Christ, so I know Christ states we are not to worry, that he has seen the past, present and future, so deep down I know he knows what’s going to happen before I do.
some of the scriptures brought to mind include:
Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?Matthew 6:26
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.Phil 4:6-7
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?Matthew 6:25
At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised.”Job 1:20-21
There is definitely a ton more of scripture I could list that go to worrying and how Jesus has everything in his control. I have faith in him, I lack faith in my himself to make the plans I hope for happen.
Most of my life I have been told I am worthless, I have no value and to me Employers have really followed the sentiment of not treating me with value, as I have worked hard to move up but felt was not allowed the opportunity to move up while others less educated, less hard working were giving chances to grow, but yet I was thought not to have a true value.
I am not sure what people truly see in me, I have made attempts to change, change my attitude, personality, how I approach people. To a certain extent I have tried to be a people pleaser but that has gotten me no where.
It is my belief that if someone wants to get somewhere they really have to be part A-hole to get there, which I guess I can go be if I chose to be, but it goes against the grain of who I am.
Why did I get off topic again, Being Thankful is something as a Christian we are taught and something as a parent we want to teach our kids, because kids needs to know they have to be thankful for what they have because they have no idea that there are kids who are less fortunate in the world.
I pray that my heart opens more , even being someone who has given my life to Jesus for over 10 years I have struggled, I have failed but deep down I know the LORD has always provided for me even in hard times. I have to remember to give praise to the KING even in hard times and not just good times.
Be Thankful, remember that when you are told that. I truly believe we live in one of the best countries, I will not say we are the Best, but a good country with flaws of course like homelessness , drugs , murder , guns that are used to kill innocents in schools and those living their everyday lives.
Again be thankful we don’t live in North Korea or Iran or even China where there is no real freedom of what we have here. Yes I am thankful but will work to be more thankful this time of year.
Wishing everyone a great Thanksgiving and remember to be thankful, that goes for me too. I know for those who are experiencing hardships it may be difficult and if you are fortunate to have family to spend this time with be thankful even if they get on your last nerve because deep down you never know when those people will be in your life forever.
If you happen to be alone at this time, remember not to beat yourself up over your failures but know we are all imperfect humans, life is not meant to be perfect for everyone just the rich and wealthy who have all their dreams fulfilled right before their eyes and have everything to be thankful for.